HELLO FRIENDSSSSSSS (my 5 readers)!!!! I havent been able to write on here for a minute now but I’m back!!!

This whole last year was most certainly the biggest character building experience I could’ve received. And I didn’t at the time know how much I needed that. I have learned so much about people, myself and how to interact with my surroundings better. But as always I am still learning.

I was fortunate to experience so much evil and so much love in many ways. They have all shaped the way I look, talk, sleep and dress. And for that I will be forever thankful but, I will be forever fearful and weary.

I met a man this year who looked at me deeply in the eye and lied to me. With the sweetest smile on his face. He called me honest and sweet. And at the time I took these as complements, I can see now that it was conceding and entertaining for him. He was 24 with a great eye for open and loving energy that he might steal.

“You’re unlike anyone i’ve ever met”

“You’re the kindest person I know”

“Thank you for caring so much about me”

Being praised for the way I love people and then getting absolutely disrespected time and time again messed me up bad. I to this day feel like people are taking advantage of me when they say stuff like this.

I found myself in a situation where I thought he was sneaking around with another girl and hiding it from me, I never thought I was the other woman. I was. When all was out and open I found myself hating my mind, my heart, MY BODY and the place I lived felt contaminated.

I write all this now because I will never let anyone make me feel that way again. And I even celebrate the man’s NOW ex girlfriend for escaping.

I got a message today from so said girl where she apologized for hating me and blaming me for her partner cheating. I didn’t know how badly I needed to hear that. I didn’t know how much I worried about her and her approval until she said that. I feel content in all that happened now because we both got better and we both got out.

The energy that this man stole will come back. With time. We will bounce back better. But will mourn the innocent, sweet souled women who were taken advantage of.

Think of them before, think about what they lost. Celebrate what they gained.