Life is full of decisions. I am notorious for making the wrong ones. Please hope its the right one this time.

I feel so alone today. I made someone else feel so alone today. How can that possibly be the right thing? I still can’t eat. I thought my body would be fixed once my problem was fixed. Is my problem fixed? When will I feel better?

I have eaten Aloo Gobi four times this last week. It burns for a few hours after I eat it. It makes me feel better. It feels like its burning all the toxins in my body out. But my issue is that now i’m starting to sweat the smell of the Indian dish. Something about the way my body metabolizes the spices leads me to secrete them through my sweat glands. How interesting?

I have been noticing signs of my vibrations getting lowered. My patience is shorter, my skin is worsening, I can’t sleep, I am unable to feel secure in my day to day life. Give me time to bring them back up.

My tofu stuck to the pan tonight when I was cooking dinner. I used cooking oil so I don’t know what my problem was.

I put in a new belly button piercing. I took three showers. I reapplied my makeup.

I changed my outfit from a big tee and spandex, to yoga pants and a sweatshirt, to purple biker shorts and a small top, now to booty huggin flared jeans and a blue tank top. All of the decisions wrong. But I thought they were right.